OF LOVE and SANITY

Intelligent minds with vulnerable hearts…

During life’s most depressing moments, the artist’s craftsmanship in words and in expressing his thoughts rises.. It is the time where he pulls from within all his emotions.. his anguish.. his fears…his hatred…

We’re not given problems we can not handle… an optimistic retaliation to life’s intricacies. Truth is, heart is so vulnerable… It could easily succumb to blows… especially if it attacks people you love… people you cared for..

When one falls in love, he never asks for more than what the other person could give. He contends himself to giving and never asking for anything in return.. It’s just love… one doesn’t ask for it… it has to be freely given …not demanded..

But what if it is neither? How should one feel if love is never returned? Should he continue on loving? On caring? On giving everything?

Sometimes, I wonder if love is really love… it has to be an inspiration… it should make one on feet and give him the courage to baffle life’s setbacks… But what if it is love itself that slowly decaying one’s sanity?

The mind is placed above the heart for it to rule over the latter… One should never be overcome by what he feels.. by his emotions… he must think of what is right.. of what should be.. True, but it is easier said than done…

Reasons diminish if one is pressed down the floor… He seeks no more for friends… he wallows in tears alone… the walls are his silent listener…

He finds comfort in solitude… in darkness… for it is only then that he could cry out loud and tell the world his cruelty… People care less… they care not.. That is the most hurting reality….

People would always give reasons for their wrongdoings… shallow… pretentious.. in an attempt to throwback the blames.. It is just that, they are too insensitive of what one feels that they assume emotions to be an exaggeration.

Writing has always been my refuge… It is here where I put all.. where I give all.. where I tell the world how painful it is living with people who do not return love given to them…

Life is indeed complicated… a lot of unanswered questions … One should learn how to defy it.. Otherwise, one would choose to take his life and leave rather than be hurt…

As I pause, it is then I would collect the pains I’ve been through… But I am still here… alive… telling what my heart feels… then tears will again start rolling down my deep eyes… I am hurt… really hurt… but have always prayed for serenity… for the calmness of my spirit.. for the refuge of my soul…

I will never stop loving… hence, I will continue writing…

UNCERTAIN

Nothing is permanent in this world except change.

To hold on to something as permanent, for life, and eternal is an absurdity. Everything is uncertain. Nothing is perpetual. What you have now may be gone tomorrow.

When one falls in love, he gives all.. Not knowing that he has to leave some for himself. He doesn't see wrong for he makes himself blind… blinded by the strong emotions that even logic and heart failed to interpret and provide reasons. Reality is far from sight.

Though feelings are strong indicators of doubts, still, one confines himself to momentary happiness. Suspicions are never entertained till the day comes that he could no longer run away from it.. till he is faced-to- faced with who to keep and who to let go.. Choice… good choice… best decision.

From the excruciating pain of the past, one has to move on… learn and let go.
LEARN. Be hurt once but never twice. It’s plain inanity. Harbor not grudges; rather trust no one that easily. Logic still exists despite failures. Be not deceived by sweet words and promises. It might consume you to death the next time.

But despite the scars left by the wounds of the past, one could not keep his heart from beating… from loving again… ‘Tis what makes humans different. We love.. we get hurt.. yet we love again.. might be hurt again…Does that mean we learn not?

No… the heart still beats.. the eyes still see beauty… gather all the roses while you may… youth is not a forever glory… it fades when one ages… love if you still could… but stop if you should…

Be ready to shed tears when things fall out of place… AGAIN…
Told you, be fooled once, but never twice… Listen to your heart if he speaks of doubts and suspicions.. Gather your thoughts… Numb not yourself from the pain… if it hurts, then let go.. Do not hold on to something that would never be yours…

It feels good to be in love… probably why people risk all for it… Love is all that matters. But why are there thorns and storms in every relationship? Because we tend to love more than we should… Because we ask for more though we’ve been given all…

Human nature…

Never stop falling in love… just LEARN…cry if you should but do not anguish… be ready to get hurt… then love again…

Experiences, pains, tears – all these make us better than yesterday… the best tomorrow…